Today is 4 weeks since we arrived here in Morecambe. We arrived in sunshine under blue skies, and it is the same today. There has been a bit of cold and wet in between, but generally our lives are full of sunshine. My friend Linda said that reading my Facebook statuses is a bit like one long episode of Escape to the Country, and I have to admit, it feels a bit that way too!
We love the town, the surrounding countryside, our house and especially the Bay. Morecambe Bay is truly stunning. It never looks the same twice, and Nigel says he will never tire of looking at it. Some days you can barely see the other side, and other days it looks so close you could swim over – not advised because beautiful though it is, the bay can be treacherous whether the tide is in or out!
People in the town are so friendly. My butcher’s name is Chris and he assures me that he will take good care of me! Everybody is the same. Nigel is making friends of dog owners everywhere he walks with the boys, and the lady in Costa greets us like old friends!
Everyday I wake up and think how lucky I am. To have a dream and be able to realise it…well it’s amazing. All those years of hard work and stress have given us this opportunity and we are grateful every day.
Are you bored yet? I am trying hard not to be smug!
To be honest there are drawbacks. I miss Zoe so badly it hurts. I miss seeing my Mum and I miss my friends. It will take time for us to develop real friendships here. It is very strange going out shopping and knowing that we will not just “bump into” someone we know. But we will have a serviceable guest bedroom soon and I hope that many friends will come and visit over the coming months.
Of course we do have friends here in the North West and we had lovely visits last week. And thankfully, despite spending a great deal of time with each other, Nigel and I are not bored of each other’s company just yet.
This week I have started to ease myself back into the world of work. I am currently in the midst of my annual Children In Need fundraising with our Car Fest Buddies page badges, which as always has been a joy and a complete pain! This year I had many orders up front due to the move, and it took me two days of stuffing envelopes to get them out. New orders are coming in each day and I am just keeping on top of them. Just over a week to Car Fest North, looking forward to it and praying for good weather!
I have started learning about my new doTerra essential oils business, I have lots of studying to do for my coaching course in September and I have started emptying the boxes from my office in readiness for my new office being equipped and carpeted. It has the best view in the house – I can actually see the bay! And I will be kept company, for a little while, by the swifts nesting on the roof.
I have to admit that when I think about starting up my businesses again there is an edge of anxiety surrounding me. I have to put myself out there again and many old insecurities re-surface. To a certain point since we got here, I have been invisible. No-one knows or cares about the fat, frumpy woman with greying and thinning hair. To a point, that has been very liberating. I am wearing what is comfortable, not worrying about make-up, letting my hair do what it wants. But actually I have kind of lost a bit of Penny with that invisibility.
Physically I have been quite poorly too. As per usual for me, complete fatigue sets in after an infection, and my recent cold has left me exhausted and suffering with some joint pain. I also have an ankle injury which I am struggling with, so not walking as much as I had hoped just yet. Interestingly my blood sugar is much improved since moving here, particularly my morning readings. Still needs to come down a bit, but we are planning to get back to our low-carb meals over the next week.
We have taken the leap and joined an amazing gym with a fabulous swimming pool. But my blood pressure was too high at the induction for me to start properly exercising without a note from my doctor. Should say here that the minute someone wants to take my blood pressure my anxiety levels soar! White coat syndrome! We are registered with a local doctor but it takes 2-3 weeks to get transferred over. So glad we are in the digital age! We plan to go and swim a couple of times a week in the meantime.
I came up here quite determined to address my health issues. And there is no doubt that we are both feeling calmer, happier and sleeping so much better. Still feels like we are on holiday to be honest! I was so unhappy with my health care in Bishops Stortford, I am really hoping for better support up here. My plan is to go in and say “this is what I want to do, can you help me?”. I know that the medication I am currently prescribed is not right. I know that I need to do more than “give up jam”. It seems that they are quite switched on up here, from everything I have seen so far. Fingers crossed.
I find it completely mind-blowing that even when I know that I am doing things that actually harm my health, I cannot get into the mindset of still doing them. That I struggle so hard to do what I know I need to do. My relationship with food is so complicated, I don’t really know where to begin to finally sort it out.
I think the answer might well be to write about it. So at some point in the next couple of months I will also be writing a weekly food blog called A Year in my Kitchen. Hopefully it will document not just what I am cooking and eating, but also the transformation of the kitchen in this house. I need to get back to my love of cooking and eating healthy and delicious food, every day! And I need to get rid of my ceramic hob. Seriously. I hate it!
Along with the eating I need to take a bit better care of me. I have found a great nail technician (although I miss my lovely Jo), so my trademark red nails are much in evidence. It’s time for me to get my hair coloured again and we are going to get a dressing table for our bedroom so I can get properly back into taking care of my skin before I really start to look every one of my almost 60 years! I feel as though I need to change how I dress too for some reason – think I need to be a bit more outrageous, more bohemian. But that’s a whole new blog.
Watch this space! I am a still a work in progress!